Friday, July 08, 2005
ahah. last day of nats heats. did 32.56 for 50 back and 1.10.66 for 100 back. ><>< sigh i seem to be stagnating. the only nice thing is that i did pm for 50 free. 28.98. its more like 29 but it sounds better right. boos. =(
today wasn't so bad though. i didn't feel quite as tired as i expected after the 100 back. is that good or bad? maybe i could have gone faster and done 1.09? -.-
finals on tues and wed. i'm super scared. at least i can say i was sorta slaking for heats cos i knew i would get into finals, but for finals, i will definitely go fast right. so if i don't do pb i'll be damn sad. supersuperscareddd. :(((((
i know everyone's telling me not to worry about my event cos i will surely get first. butbut. the point is that i don't care about the bloody medal. even if i were last and i did 31 for 50 back and 1.09 for 100 back, i'd be happy. i don't give a shate about the medal! why is everyone so bent on the dumb medal. just having that medal does NOT mean you are the best in singapore. its just. a piece of metal. i mean, if you were the 1st and you didn't do pb, would you be happy? i know i certainly would not. after all, you know that you didn't do as well as you should have and could have so where's the pleasure in that?
shate i don't think i'm gonna do well ok. dumb timing. i'm stagnating. hope its not gonna be like my fly again. argh. i seem to be able to do the time just once, after which i never even smell it again. ><
quitquitquit. should i quit? i feel like sometimes. its just so frustrating. i just can't seem to attain the sort of speed that i want.
i hate wannabes. i hate people who try to be popular. likelike. HER.
i mean. argh. you try and be like everyone you think is "cool". conformity. not so good in this case. i mean. if you wanna be cool go and buy a fan or sth man. ok out of point. seriously though. if you want people to like you and respect you then you don't really go around trying to be like everybody. cos its not cool. its just irritating. can you imagine someone coming to you and copying everything you do including you handwriting and the things you do and say? boo.
i can't stand you man. i don't care if you come here and see this. cos you jolly well know that i dislike you. i've disliked you since ast year. i didn't mind you at the start of last year but once you started sticking to us and copying everything we did, then i started hating you. sticky dumbass. like sticking plaster. something that NEVER comes off.
if you bothered to look, closely, you'd realise that even the people you think like you DON'T. they actually despise you. they can't stand you. hah. now you know.
why am i wasting my breath on this. its just sorta fun. nevermind.
bwah.
i'm still hungry. ><
kat â¥
9:50 PM
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