Thursday, August 04, 2005
ptptptptptpt. subjectcombisubjectcombisybjectcombi. hwhwhwhwhw.
so many things to do, and so little time. i knwo i shouldn't be here blogging, but i felt that i just had to come here and blog. i know i should be finishing my chinese pt and then going to bed cos i have to train tmr morning, but still i tell myself, later. this is precisely what prevents me from achieving what i want. procrastination. i know i'm guilty of it, yet i can't seem to change. i dunno what's wrong with me.
i think i'm training too hard for aag. i've trained so hard that nowadays when i try to sprint, i go at warmup speed. i can't go any faster than that. i can't seem to do anything right now. whats happening to me? i get grouchy cos of this and thats why i've been snapping at people these few days. stuff just gets to me and i get pissed for no reaseon. so if i happened to shout at anyone, which i did, then i'm sorry ok. just tell me to piss off or sth cos thats what i want to do. just piss off and shut the world out.
i want to forget you. i really do. but i don't know how to. even though i know that i definitely can't have you, i feel as though i must keep on trying. i want to forget you so much, yet at the same time i keep telling myself that i musn't give up just like that. >< but i miss you so much. =(
whats happening to me. i can't do anything right. i keep getting everything wrog and screwint everything up. i was looking forward to aag some days ago, but now i look at the way i'm training and i think that maybe i'm better off not going for it anyway. i mean, i'm probably only gonna screw up my events right. ><
i can't think of how to miao xie the stupid mrt station. BLOODY EFFING SHATE.
why the hell do we have to do so many pts. not like our pt's are of any practical use anyway. HAIYA.
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sdkhfsufsdfrfg
sorry i'm frustrated.
and i don't know what to do cos i'll NEVER be with you.
kat â¥
9:21 PM
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