Saturday, May 06, 2006
OMG there's lit and physics tmr and i'm completely not prepared. SHATE la i'm surely gonna die. i dunno why i'm blogging again after having blogged already last night, but i just can't seem to concentrate on physics. ><>:|
i was just thinking last night. i decided that since i've been forced to continue swimming until j2 at least then i'll just go to the pool and do whatever i can like a robot. don't expect me to have anymore passion for a sport that just makes me want to scream and shout and cry. at best i'll do it without saying anything, but i'll be screaming inside, be sure of that. and i suppose another reason i'm continuing is just so that i can see you. granted that its not really very often, but at least i do still get to see you sometimes, and that's enough for me. (:
okok i'm sorry for making everyone who reads my blog unhappy too, but there's no other place for me to write this stuff, so just bear with me. ><
i feel as if i really can't smile anymore. don't ask me why. i may seem happy most of the time, but honestly, that's all a facade, nothing more. humans are such stupid creatures. i hate all the phony pretensions and the walls that we erect around ourselves. why can't we just be sincere.
huh. LUNCH. what's the point of even eating. rarrs. forgetit. i'll go away and hide myself under a rock.
my world is falling apart.
kat â¥
9:30 PM
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