Monday, May 22, 2006
shate i know digressing is evil but i can't concentrate on anything. my mind is all over the place. i really need to get things sorted out before i can really sit down to mug, but by the time everything in my brain is where it should be, i think i'll be out of time. i think i must be a really evil person. i'm just killing myself slowly here. i know i should be studying, but everytime i look at the chem textbook i just want to cry. i know i'm being an escapist here, but it would help if there was actually someone to explain everything to me. i only get the simple stuff like preparation of gases. SOMEONE SAVE ME.
i think my life is a mess. it really is. i can't do anything right. can't swim well, can't study well, damn it i'm even a bad classchair. i'm sorry i've let somany people down. i really try. but it gets so hard. i really need a break now. really need to let some steam off. i want to pound the wall and scream and punch something and inflict pain on myself just so that the physical pain will take my mind off the emotional and mental turmoil. i'd really just like to know what my life is supposed to be about, cos its so screwed it can't possibly be for anything.
yeah, i know.
i'm useless.
i admit it.
kat â¥
7:27 AM
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